Wednesday, January 09, 2008;
♥ 1/09/2008 05:49:00 AM
See it don’t take a rocket scientist to know I love youAnd it don’t take a rocket scientist to know I need youSee if you believe that you and meCan change the world some dayThen you believe me when I sayI still love you>>
Hellooo! :DMm, i dont exactly have much to blog about. =XLet's see, school's behaving in its usual horrendous way. I really dread waking up at 5plus, just to go to school. ): Seriously! I even couldnt believe that i managed to wake up this early for school for the past decade of my life. Goodness gracious. =XAnd i haven finish. I really dread going to school. ): Not that i hate studying (i mean, i actually enjoying studying. Provided no one gives me unnecessary stress. ), neither do i hate my classmates (in fact, girlfriends like beeping huiyee huili ruiping makes going school slightly more enjoyable. :D). Its just that i cant eliminate the dread feeling inside of me everytime i wake up for school. =l SIGH.I wish i could rewind time.Then i would rewind it all the way back to when i was just a kid. No troubles, no problems. My only concern and worry will be what will happen if i dont watch my cartoon on tv, or when will my next candy ever come to me.Or if i cant, then i would fastfoward time.To the time when i graduate from school. Mm, no wait. Then, there'll still be some forms of education waiting to torture me. Maybe, to the time when i promote completely out of the education system and step into the working system. =l Let's see, stress and everything else comes in here huh. Ha! Why not, let me just fastforward the time to the period where i would be sleeping happily in my own coffin. (:Nah. Maybe not, again.
We're humans. And humans are just liddat, huh? We will never, (or fine. If you want to 'save face') most of the time, complain at the things and events we have at hand. Yet, regretting not being able to treasure the past things and events while it lasted. And at the same time, wishing we could all teleport to the future.Just like how, we always regret yesterdays, complain todays, and wish for tomorrows.TSK.
Oh right. I wouldnt say my current life is depressing or whatsoever. But i wouldnt say it's good, happy, and whatsoever too. It's stuck, somewhere in the middle. Which i feel, isnt exaclty a good thing. Cos if your life were to be like mine. Stuck in the middle of nowhere. You really dont have an idea whether should you be happy, or be sad.So yeah, im feeling feeling-less recently. Cos im kind of confused as to, how am i supposed to feel. Which explains why i do have extreme mood swings. I may be smiling, grinning like a retarded fool this sec. Yet, the next sec, you see me stoning, with this tiny glum on my face. =lMm, give me a moment. While i go out there, in search for wenfang's mood.
On a random note, i'm freaking out for As actually.(for those who know me, not a single exam (minor/major) so far, actually has an afffect on how i feel, like weeks, months ago. But As is! Which i dont know if it's a good thing or not. =X )
&maybe things will be fine after awhile.